Can't get enough

Jun. 11th, 2025 05:56 pm
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I'm still salty about Vampyr's ending. And a bit angry too. Like, how dare Elisabeth accuse Jonathan of betraying her. Since I didn't turn the old, nasty guy into a vampire, people who were similarly confused by the sad ending we got mused that it must be because we killed too many people. But hey, Jonathan is a freshly turned vampire whose maker didn't teach him anything. So how can she demand that he immediately get his hunger under control and vow to never feed on humans again?! She's several centuries old, of course she had time to think about her constitution and train her self-constraint. It's also quite hypocritical since she once went on a killing spree across Europe! Sure, she was infected by the "hatred," but how can she be so unforgiving with Jonathan in such a case?! Killing herself should also a bad decision from the standpoint that without her "guidance" he might as well just say fuck it and start killing people for food willy nilly.

But anyway. I stared "The Lesser Dead," a vampire book set in 1978 NYC and it's SO, SO good. The main vampire character is just how I like my vampires: with questionable moral and unscrupulous but not comically evil (or a sad emo boy à la Twilight). I LOVE the book, I have to stop myself from binging it because I know that once I finish it I have no other vampire books left to read. I need more vampires!

I guess I should really return to my original vampire story set in early 1900s Vienna outline, but I'm lazy. It's just so much easier to write for an established franchise. I do have ideas for my beloved Ferdinand though, I'd just have to sit down and focus on drafting a nice story around him. Muse, please send me more inspiration and motivation to be productive.

Today I had something very surreal happen to me at work, but sadly I can't talk about it because I don't want to be doxable. :/ And tomorrow is the day I have been dreading for a while: there's this evening function I mentioned before. I had hoped that after the horrible shooting that happened in Austria yesterday it would get cancelled like so many other events, but nope. It's still on and I have no way out. /sigh I can't even work from home during the day, nope I have to be at the office due to an incoming delegation and go there straight after work, which means I'll have to bring my fancy clothes with me and change in my office. Boo! I wish I could just skip ahead like 30 hours. I just hope my colleagues won't pester me to stay long. Since it's taking me more than an hour to get home from where the event is being held, I'd prefer leaving at around 8pm, but I highly doubt they'll let me get off so soon. :/ Oh well. Augen zu und durch! If only I was a vampire.

For Sale: Echo Show (2nd Generation)

Jun. 9th, 2025 06:26 pm
settiai: (Ahsoka -- xaetel)
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I know it's a long shot considering Amazon is Amazon, but would anyone be interested in buying an Echo Show (2nd Gen) 10" in black charcoal? Or know anyone who might want one?

It's used, but it still works perfectly fine. It's been in my storage unit in the hope I'd be in a position to use it again, as it was really useful for cooking purposes (among other things) when I was living in an apartment with a full-sized kitchen, but it's become increasingly clear that I'm not moving out of the hotel anytime soon so I really have no need for it.

I'd be willing to accept any reasonable offer. There's no listings on Amazon since it's an older model, but there are some available on eBay for comparison. I could have it in the mail either this weekend or early next week at the latest.

For payment, I have CashApp ($Settiai), PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle (nancy.lynn.foster@gmail.com).

If you know anyone who might be interested, please point them my way. I'm still around $100 shy of being able to cover all of my upcoming bills, and it would help a lot if I could find someone interested in taking this off my hands.

Vampyr disappointment

Jun. 9th, 2025 11:12 am
himbeersaft: (Garfield - Not amused)
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I finally finished Vampyr today. I already did the final boss yesterday, so today I only had the epilogue left, and I have to say I'm severely disappointed. I loved the game right until the end, but now I'm left feeling rather snubbed. I got the sad ending, one of the two (of a total of four) that aren't considered to be good. I can live with not getting a good one, since I did kill a few people (though to be fair, I was very restrained), but they way it came to be just made no sense.

That's the main problem with the game. While the premise is amazing, the execution of the story is just bad. Character development for important NPCs doesn't happen, which is why their actions are often baffling when they happen. The worst offender was the character of Elisabeth and her romance with the main character. It happened out of nowhere. All of a sudden those two start using endearments for each other and the MC talks incessantly about how much he loves her. Which could have been a nice romance, but there was no build-up for it. And so I just couldn't take it seriously.

Even worse, in the ending I got, Elisabeth accuses Jonathan of having betrayed her. She then immediately kills herself, resulting in said sad ending. However, I have no idea what she's even talking about. How did Jonathan betray her? I looked it up online, and people think she's talking about turning a certain NPC into a vampire, however, I didn't do that! So what is she on about? Seems like I'm not the only one who had that issue though, a lot of people were complaining that it made no sense whatsoever.

I can't say I'm particularly sad about Elisabeth's death, like I said I found the romance to be badly developed (read: no at all), but that kind of randomness right at the end left a bitter taste in my mouth. Jonathan ended up "lost and without purpose" due to her death, but I can always pretend that he'd get over her death soon. I'd much rather have him dead than be all lovey-dovey with her and move to America with her (WHY?!).

Anyway, I loved around 80% of the game, I just wish the ending had made more sense and the characters had been written in a more believable and consistent way. Now that I'm done with the game I'm tempted by Clair Obscur, but I think I'll wait until I finished the new Genshin patch that comes out on the 18th.

Speaking of Genshin, after the disappointing livestream in which they announced that Dahlia wasn't going to run with Emilie but Skirk and Shenhe, both characters I don't want, I drowned out my sorry by pulling for Chiori's C1. It was a bad idea, but I have no regrets. I love her so much, and her C1 is actually really good. She's one of the characters I decided to focus on building really well, the others being Kinich and Lyney.

I also wrote my first piece of het fic in I don't know how many years. I think Lyney/Chiori could be really cute together. :3

I'm still thinking about Hux though. Hux pining for his LI (which is, ofc, my OC because I just can't look at any other Hux ships anymore), and his LI pining right back. Aaaaaaah! <3 I do also want to write more Chiori though. It's tough. Why do we need jobs again? I just want to read and write and sip tea all day long.

This week is going to be horrible. Today is a public holiday (Whit Monday, thank god for Catholic holidays), but I'll be really busy the rest of the week and, worst of all, will have to attend a formal evening event on Thursday. I'm so not looking forward to that. Can't we just skip ahead one week, please?

Fic: Quiet Moments (Dragon Age)

Jun. 8th, 2025 12:14 pm
settiai: (Dragon Age -- offensive)
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Quiet Moments (1825 words) by Settiai
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Solas/Male Trevelyan (Dragon Age), background Cullen Rutherford/Male Trevelyan
Characters: Male Trevelyan (Dragon Age), Solas (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Arlathan Exchange (Dragon Age), Formerly Tranquil Inquisitor (Dragon Age), Hurt/Comfort, Lyrium Addiction, Lyrium Withdrawal, One Shot, Queerplatonic Relationships, Slice of Life, Trans Inquisitor (Dragon Age), Trans Male Inquisitor (Dragon Age)
Summary: Connor Trevelyan hadn't expected anyone to join him on the battlements in the middle of the night.

Fic: A Study in Worth (Dragon Age)

Jun. 8th, 2025 12:12 pm
settiai: (Fenris -- offensive)
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A Study in Worth (1428 words) by Settiai
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dragon Age II, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Anders/Fenris (Dragon Age)
Characters: Anders (Dragon Age), Fenris (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Arlathan Exchange (Dragon Age), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Established Relationship, Mental Health Issues, One Shot, Post-Dragon Age II, Pre-Dragon Age: Inquisition
Summary: It was blatantly obvious that Anders was spiraling again.

. . .

Jun. 8th, 2025 12:30 am
settiai: (Delenn -- lifeistoobrevis)
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I'm still not feeling particularly great, but my brain has at least stopped spiraling quite as badly. So that's something at least. I'm still definitely worried about covering upcoming bills, but it doesn't feel as completely impossible as it did when I made my last post.

If you reached out, thank you very much, and I want you to know that it really did help a lot. 💕

I'm not quite at a point brain-wise where I think that I can send out replies to people without being completely overwhelmed, and - while I'm not going to disable comments on this post like I did earlier - I probably won't be replying to any of them at least for the time being. I'm at a point where human interaction is definitely difficult right now, especially since I need to save up any spoons I can for work on Monday as I'm in the office that day.

After I made my post this afternoon, I got offline for several hours. I forced myself to clean the hotel room before buzzing my hair, taking a shower, bleaching my roots, and putting some dye in my hair to re-up the orange. Honestly, it wasn't much in the grand scheme of things, but it at least helped some.

And then I tried to go to bed early, although that clearly didn't work out very well considering it's a little after midnight and I've given up and am back on the computer. As is often the case when I go to bed too early, my body decided it was intended to be a nap rather than proper sleep, so I'm wide awake again and probably will remain so until at least 3am now.

Still, my spoons continue to be very much in the negative, but I at least feel more like a human being than I did earlier. One step at a time, I suppose?
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